Tonight my mother is still in an argumentative mood. I understand some of her frustration however this is a situation she created. Lashing out at me will do nothing to resolve her problems. My internalizing the hurt from her lashing out at me only serves to hurt my progress. I therefore take the time to chill in a manner that is beneficial to me. I blog. I look forward to the day that the work I am putting in now pays off for me. I am ready to move forward. I no longer have the fear of poverty. I truly have worked my way through it all. Part of my turning 40 has been being able to release much of the fear that had taken hold of me. Recently I had to let go of the fear of my son loving my mother more than me. I came to understand that it really does not matter for I shall love him anyway. He is free to love as ge does it is just my job as his mom to love him anyway.
Fear if you allow it will keep you frozen in time. If it is your destiny to move then you must shake loose the fear or you will become crazy. I choose to stay sane and to meet my future head on. Thanks God for the blessings given to me. I thank you for peace and for joy.
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