Opening up

Yesterday under the guise of getting in shape I opened up about myself. I was honest about myself. It felt really good. I am prepared to start today on my path. One step in front of the other. Small steps.

Keeping kids home because of ice in highway. I am happy. Went to sleeping thinking of the Superbowl ticket dream I had had two weeks ago. I awoke after a strange steam of waterfall and twinkle bell type people. I am not sure how it all ties together but after meeting that woman last week in TN I know to pay attention to my dreams.


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MT day 1

Today was my first day if training. Having failed in the past, I know the value of being mentally ready for such an undertaking. I quit my job last year due to health issues brought on by stress. Living at my mother's home has allowed for a reduction of stress but it is still very stressful. However today confirmed that proper planning will allow me to reduce stress and to be successful in my training. I have had several events to occur today, some before 10 AM, to block my success. The joy is proper planning for such roadblocks has allowed me to remain at peace. My mother had tried twice to guilt trip me. My town was placed on a winter storm warning. My perpetually unemployed brother is eating food I purchased for my child. My mother becomes upset when I mention that such behavior is not acceptable, guilt trip. Today I handled all events with true calm. I was able to keep my goal in mind. The only true stressing part of the day was not being able to upload videos. I took a deep breath and resolved to send the videos once the winter storm had cleared. I have consumed 16oz of coffee, 4oz of green smoothie (www.wholeliving.com/action-plan), 32oz of water,12 oz of veg chilli and 6 dorito chips.

I shall get in bed by 10pm. I look forward to the morning. I am also looking forward to finalizing papers on a new home before Friday of this week.


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Thankful

I am thankful for this day. Tomorrow I start my training. I see that I shall have family obstacles to overcome. The good thing is I am able to just throw off the mess they bring to me. I am blessed. I am starting today with a light meal of crackers,sprite, and coco.

I am keeping my spirits up. I know this year is mine. I must stay focused. I can achieve my goals this year. The goals I have had since 1992 are about to be realized. I give thanks to God.

Today is a good day.


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Keeping on

My mother is trying to guilt me into providing for my 30 year old pot smoking brother. I let her know that once I had the deed in hand I was moving. I would not attempt to run her house. I shall focus only on my home. She issued a God threat on me. I know God is ready for me to move. It is my time to do that I am here to do. I shall stay focused. I shall mark out each step I am to make. I know God is with me.


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A few more days

Sunday Timothy said something to me about things changing in two days. When I questioned him deeper about his statement he said it was a slip. I let it go for he thought I was angry but I was not angry. It was just something in his words that rung true with me. Yesterday he said to me that he would like to go to Disney World. I had been thinking since our recent trip to the Silverstar Casino of taking him to Disney.

This morning as I watch my brother shake down a man over drug money owed to him, I knew I had to leave. Getting my son away from this influence is job one. My brother for a black child had all the key ingredients for success unfortunately he also had some failure markers as well.


Today I had no intention on going to Memphis to get a lottery ticket. Yet something encouraged me to go. I am praying for a win. What has me excited is I met a woman who fit my dream of 9/13/2010. She was married to a military man and they had moved recently. They did have an issue with the moving company. We shared lotto numbers. She did not know how to fill out the form. That is how we got to talking. I am sure I was where God wanted me today. She had dream if giving money to sister and I has had dream of putting money in several Hancock branches b
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Blessings everday

Today was a good day. I got some work done. I was able to spend time alone. There were so many things early on this morning that served as stressors, however; during my alone time I was able to review my reactions. Prayer is my constant companion. It is by using prayer that I shall be able to overcome the barriers. I remind myself to focus on the positive more than the crap. Staying focus on positive will allow the positive to become a part of my world. I am done with attracting the negative. God is my guide.


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New Year 2011

I give thanks that we made it through the night. It is funny how life changes your value system. At one point in my life being out on New Year's Eve for a party would have been the thing. At this point in my life being home with my son was the important thing for me.

I have resolutions that I have made public. Video blogging my training for 2012 marathon for Lymphoma and Leukemia Society is one public item. Some resolutions I have not made public. These are the ones that mean the most for my overall development. Controlling my anger tops my personal list of resolutions. Using my wealth wisely is the second item on my list. I have put aside the desire to establish a strong bond with my mother. I have accepted our relationship for what it is. I love her but I can no longer put my life on hold for her. Self-preservation is the key for me this year. I am determine to succeed this year. I shall reach my goals in all areas.

Blessings to one and all.